I hate being myself...
Have you ever wonder how hard life was? how it is unfair? How it is cruel? I do... I do wonder... Have you ever felt how hard is to live poorer than a rat? I do... I felt it...
I really wish this could end, I wish I could cry but to bad I can't... with a cold heart like mine.. I wish it would go away.. I have too many debts... and I don't really know where to get money to pay those debts from my friends.. As you see, money is everything for me. You can't eat w/o money, you can't be clothe if you have no money, You can't feed your hungry family with love, can love buy food at the stores? can love clothe you? OR can love make your empty stomach full? Love is not a need, it is a want... MONEY is a need, at times like this.. How can you live w/ love ONLY? tell me how...
My mom has no Job abroad.. we are starving. We are close to dying... I go to school on an empty stomach, with an empty purse. My friends sometimes don't understand me. Says money isn't everything... Yeah.. To you it is not every thing. But to me?
We where the lucky ones back to those good times.. but you can't expect to drive a good car to life.. Sometimes you will over come humps and holes on the road.. Flat tires.. Busted engines.. Empty gas, w/c will leave you on that road of problems where you can't go on cause of those problems.. You see, having no father isn't easy...
Last night. I heard the news.. where many had died in ultra cause of that WOWOWEE show... Many tried to get in. to get a shot for money. so that they can feed their hungry kids. But life's cruel. many had died at the stampede.. many had died because of desperation, those who are desperate to live, hoping for WOWOWEE to help them.. sadly.. It killed them...
Those who died are justified.. those who died will be honored.. I wish I was dead too....
to all who I had debts... I really wish I could pay you sooner.. to bad I don't know where am I going to get money... Hate me, despise me.. I deserve it..
