I can't talk...... REALLY!!! LOL... I really can't think well right now.. Dunno, it's maybe becoz im so hungry.. :( lol ahahaha
anyways. the weather is fine.. NOT!! it is very hot and Im going to Melt in this kind of weather. Damn! wish my room's airconditioned so that I'll never go out of my house and stay here all day long! LOL nah but even if I had that, I coudn't resist the urge to go to GC's gatherings and stuff.. ya know.. LOL I am a sociable person. but still there's something inside me that makes solitude a good matter and a sense of happiness and bliss to my melancholic pesonality..
Being alone.. LOL what I can say about that. :D well, When i was a child I was always left alone in our apartment while my beloved mom works for our daily living. LOL well.. though I have many toys, I managed to be alone and yep.. I got used to it by that time.. ahahaha and as a typical child I play w/ my toys all day w/c makes my mom, neighbors that I was a retard... OT/Auty whattever you want to call it.. -__-
lol junior high days = already over.. hahaha very fun very fun... close to being a senior hahaha.. LOL the most enjoying high school year of my life.. comes to an end. It really does tell that "Time flies when you are enjoying" agree?? :)
and Oh yeah.. its valentines today.. speaking of valentines.. I haven't experienced dating in valentines day.. or I haven't experienced dating since birth! LOL ahaha.. they say teens should enjoy their years. dating and such.. LOL i wanna try that but.. hell! I can't seem to find out HOW will I date her.. I mean. I'm not shy to ask but, Is she free that day? or how and where will I date her? lol but there are many more valentines to come.. ahaha might as well greet her or be sorry ahaha.. na joke.. ^__^
hhayy.. I wanted to try things but I can't find opportunity though.. my life's really miserable and sad.. I can't find contentment.. LOL things keep bugging me.. I really think Im going insane.. I wanted to close my eyes but everytime I close it this problems I see.. Even in the presence of my friends my heart still can't find time to relax and enjoy life.. It justs wanted to get out of me.. find another body and leaving me w/o a heart nor a soul.. -__- this is really bad... the ending of this suffering that i've been waiting for a long time doesn't seem to come and bring me so much joy, happiness and contentment.. as simple as that.. lol mood change? from joyful to melancholic expressions of disaster and mess.. LOL "Under the smiles and cheerful attitude lies a great sadness no one can ever take"
so many pressure.... but after all those shit that happened to me.. I don't feel like celebrating the day of hearts today.. just an ordinary day to me..
but still...
happy valentines to all of you.
